That Nerdy Chick

I cannot believe I am going to be a published author

Tue, 14 Jun 2011 01:48:00 -0400

Like a published … published … author.

Three words: Dream. Come. True.

I’m currently writing the author proposal (part of their process … it’s like a super long explanation on what the book is going to be about … your bio … TOC … etc) - it’s for the popular “For Dummies” series; I will be writing the Personal Branding edition.

Like literally … I am writing the book on personal branding.

Dream come true. Dream come true. Dream come true.

It is going to be a big undertaking, but I am so ready for the challenge. I can’t believe I am going to have something I wrote available on Amazon. Wowwwwwwwwwww!!

Dudes, just do what you love in life, man. This is me. I’m super ADD, I always need to be doing 10,000,000 things - and and and … I’m just grateful, man.

This is a HUGE milestone, and I can’t thank you all enough for the help and the support.

I share this all with a piece of you.

Very sincerely giving you all my love and all my heart. Thank you for all the support of TNTML. We’re going big, big places!!!! =)

xoxo #NERDSUNITE

I zigged when I should have zagged

Thu, 19 May 2011 19:40:53 -0400

AHHHH!!! So I have something that I need to write out, but I can’t on the site cause he reads it … and he already doesnt like what I do … and um yeah.

Alrite, so on night 2 of my social experiment - I met a super super super cute guy. We’ve gone out on a few dates … but he doesn’t jive with what i do and isnt looking for anything serious. He’s actually like literally the sweetest dude on the planet, and more than anything just wants to kick it.

it fucking frustrates me though and i told him the other night that i wondered if the only reason why i was attracted to him was because he was emotionally unavailable. WHAT ARE THE ODDS THAT THIS KEEPS HAPPENING!!! AND WHAT CAN I DO ABOUT IT!!!!!!

I’ve just been tearing up all day. i dont get it. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! Not even like in the chick way of beating myself up - I just do NOT understand what my next doable action is in this scenario. If I could at least understand some bit of something from what I am doing and what I am attracted to, then I guess I could do something about it, but im just so clueless.

Ugh.

We have a date tomorrow, but i told him i wouldnt blog about it, and im not even bringing my phone out.

im just over it. im just so so so over it.

it makes it that much harder when so many people look up to you. i get soooo many emails from people offering help and support, but its not these guys. it’s something inside of me. I just dont know what to do at this point.

How can i stop being attracted to dudes like this?!?!?!

#help

Ize Got A Home

Fri, 06 May 2011 22:25:50 -0400

AHHH!!! I’ve been in my new home for almost a week now after urban camping for almost 365 days straight, and I can’t even begin to tell you how happy it is making me.

No, like for real - my OWNNNN bed, my OOOWWNNNN room, my OWWNNNN space. Just so incredible.

And um, all for getting to do cool and weird shit? How AMAZING is that?!?! So so so grateful.

Keeps me motivated at the same time to keep this. It was easy before because I had absolutely nothing to lose - now i’ve added a layer of responsibility. I knew where there were homeless shelters if I ever absolutely needed one - etc. I can’t go back to that mentality. It’s so unbelievably stressful. ::sigh::

#shitgotreal

Happy St. Pattys day!

Fri, 18 Mar 2011 00:39:12 -0400

OH my goodness gracious acious!! The literary agent at our new agency has our pilot in his/her hands for the weekend. OMMMGGGGGG so excited. I’m pretty sure it got presented to the TV duderino today. I dunno, I leave that up to the suits. That’s their thing. I’m so EXCIIITTEEEEDDD, yet nervous. Dude, the marketing for this show is so EFFIN off the wall awesome - I am sincerely praying that people can just understand it. I wrote it in as simple of terms as possible - keep the geek speak on the DL for SURREEEE but ugh! I just believe in this thing so fucking much - its crazy … I just hope that people understand it. I sound super cocky saying it’s not a matter of will this work, IT WILL WORK … but I fucking put my own money where my mouth is for the last year, and look where that got me.

I feel like they’re gonna get it - the dollar signs are spelled out pretty well - THIS WILL MAKE YOU A SHIT TON OF MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY is pretty much watermarked on every single page of the marketing bible.

I’ve heard first hand from SUPER HUGE TV peeps that they know everything changed. So I’m at least hopeful that they will see what we are presenting to them as a solution to said problem.

It’s always about the “Why!” When it comes to anything in life, if you can ever solve the “why” you can really do anything.

Why do people use social media?

Why why why why why … amazing.

Dude, do you have any idea what this is going to do for other shows too??? The greater good of solving the “how do we advertise to these people in social media?” has been answered. I’ve studied so many trends, live in this world, have the most amazing nerdy team of peers that I respect and ask a gajillion questions to.

There’s just such a disconnect between the tech community and the entertainment community, I really really really do believe in my heartest of hearts that this project is going to bridge that. Really do. Like crazy really do.

Dude, I myself am a bridge of it!!! I’ve spent half of my life in the entertainment industry, and the other half secretly coding and mingling in forums. First SN ever: cyber-babe on Yahoo! Yep, 1997. Had no idea what cybering was. That was a wake up call. Thought hey, I’m a babe … and this is cyber spaceeeee!! Yipeee!! Not so much for a 12 year old - who said she was 26 with a C cup. HAHAHAHAHA!! omg horrible. Still don’t have a C cup come to think of it. Need to add that to my list to Santa for next year. Actually, I have REALLY nice boobs. Pretty proud of ‘em. Girls with fake titties scare me. They’re so hard, and gross, and say so much about the person that got them. I feel like if you’ve had a masectomy or something, then sure! Make yourself feel better, but come on man. Have you ever taken off your top and heard a dude go ewe? Lame.

I’m too pop to be nerdy and WAYYYYY too nerdy to be pop. The result of it all is still not getting me a date. UGH!!! Er, wait, I can get a date - I just can’t find a boy that I want to spend more than a few hours with.

Fucking frustrating.

People are alarmingly stupid, and passion-less. You vibrate (for lack of a better word) differently when you’re doing shit that you love. People feed off of it. It’s insane; you’re this light surrounded by moths.

I love doing what I do … I really really really do, but finding a boy to fuck every once in a while would be nice too. My body would appreciate it.

#thatisall

YAY LIFE!!

Fri, 11 Mar 2011 18:53:29 -0500

I slept in a bed last night! i slept in a bed last night! i slept in a bed last night! i slept in a bed last night!

that made my life.

seriously.

king sized bed.

#amazing

HOT WATER! HOT WATER! HOT WATER!!

Tue, 08 Mar 2011 18:55:33 -0500

Dear universe,

Can I please shower with hot water again soon? Seriously! Cause I know a lot of people in this world don’t have running water - and I know, super grateful to even have a roof over my head-n-all … but for reals, I would KILL for a hot shower. We haven’t had a steady stream of it in weeks, and uh, yeah, it sucks.

Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. with whipped cream and a cherry on top?

#thatisall

She Thought Soy Milk was I am Milk

Tue, 08 Mar 2011 17:24:00 -0500

oh holy shit fuckerdy, I am tired. Not like tired tired - but just trying to come to terms with things emotionally. This whole pilot process is way more emotionally tolling than one could imagine. For real, seems like this magical dream, but that’s just the romanticized version. Again, don’t get me wrong, worst problem in the world to have - wow my head hurts because I’ve been researching trademarking for the pilot they are basing on my life and my brand. *worlds smallest violin*

This is all a very strange thing to experience, and then broadcast. One, I have to be conscious to not tell the whole story - while at the same time, it totally excites me that I’ve documented every.single.step of the journey from the very beginning in the hopes that people could learn something from it. Actually, lemme keep it real, I posted those thoughts in the beginning just as a sounding board for myself. At the time, no one read us - so I lie, I didn’t do it for you, I did it for me; life is reflective. The documenting in real time however has been the most bitchin part about the entire last year. Every meeting, every skype, every anything - all documented.

Dude, I just want my own home again. Like so badly. Like so so so so so badly. I want to go to the grocery store, buy my own groceries, and sleep in a bed that I call my own. Day 98 of sleeping on my current couch situation, and haven’t had a home to call my own since May 23, 2010. Fucking bat shit. Fucking bat shit. Fucking bat shit. I had no idea it would have lasted as long as it did. Again, I still would ABSOLUTELY do it all over again - duh. But, I just need to decompress. Nothing has really even started yet, and that just blows my mind. Dude, so many people know the story too. BLOWS MY MIND that a friend of the site had a friend working over at the Verizon call center when I called in a few weeks back - they heard my name and went CRAZYYY!!! The guy was like, you talked to @JenFriel?!? OMG OMG OMG OMG!! It’s weird, and none of that has hit me. You see analytics, but they’re just numbers on a page. I kinda get it every once in a while when I go out - but then I come home and sleep on a couch. Keeps you humble, thats for sure, but I still won’t change.

HAHA, famous last words, I know I know. But I’ve already been around this part of the rodeo. I’ve lived in LA for 7 years, I’m very honestly not phased by much. I just really really REALLY love my website. I LOVE exploring human nature, in an honest and engaging way. I just want to tell stories in social media, and some how come up with this formula to then be able to shift into more of a producer mode for other people’s stories when my own becomes too public and uninteresting.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT A HOME!! PLEASE!! AN APARTMENT! A ROOM! A PLACE TO ACTUALLY PUT THE FEW THINGS IN THIS WORLD I STILL HAAVVVEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

I just want to keep coming up with ways of getting sponsors to cross shit off my bucketlist. Skydiving was AHMAZING! And oh yeah, sponsored by a bedding company?!? Insane. People just really like the brand name, I almost never hear the word “no.” Which is rad, because I never settle for a no anyway; it’s just a starting off point.

I REALLY WANT A HOMEEEE!!! I REALLY REALLY REALLLLYYYYYY WANT A HOMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps. my parents are proud of me again. that feels good.

p.p.s my brother told me i had put on weight since he last saw me. i informed him that it was difficult to find a low carb option when you are bartering for food all day, every day for a year. BUT! That’s why my latest sponsorship is a gym. Oh LA - behave.

#kthxbye

BEST.THING.EVER!!!

Tue, 08 Mar 2011 01:31:38 -0500

BEST.THING.EVER!!!

These are the thoughts inside of my head ...

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 20:24:28 -0500

Alrite, first off - tumblr, get your shit together man. I’ve heard people complain up, down, left, and right about server problems on Tumblr … good lord, they weren’t kidding. Sucks a babys pacifier i am growing tire. see what i tried to do there. yeah? you got it.

So, they’re turning my brand “talk nerdy to me lover” into a pilot. Super fucking rad, and in fact its so rad, they’re already discussing a spin off and a book. They being the suits, and the super smarty pants people associated with the pilot.

I wanted to start this site as more of a diary of my thoughts on the entire process. I personally need the release, and when I tried posting it all on TNTML, people grew tired and a bit annoyed. It’s rad - I get it, I don’t at all take it personally … quite the opposite, I find it INCREDIBLY flattering that the brand that I built with my BBBAAARRREEEEEE hands is bigger than me. Talk about humbling. Amazing. Exciting. Just … incredible.

I still at the end of the day want to document my entire experience through this process. I’ve posted on how I got to where I am since this project came to percolation in the beginning of June - but now shit is getting real … and really fast.

I obviously won’t be able to post on a lot of things since there are NDAs, and frankly, I’m not looking to shoot my own self in the foot - so, some posts I’m sure are going to have to be more feeling oriented - with a flip back to remember this post? Well HERE”S THAT STORY!!!!

So rad. Do what you love man. That’s all we have to do in life. It really is that easy. BAHHHHHH!!! So excited. #thatisall

#test

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 19:27:24 -0500

::waves:: hello cyber world. this is a test, this is onnllllyyyy a test